I have wondered how you serve when you are trying to reorient yourself, find your bearings, and all while being so inwardly focused? It is difficult for me to explain or reconcile this, but somehow you must continue to serve others, if it is your true nature. It becomes your true nature through faith in Christ and a focus on what you can do for others, and somehow your own problems shrink and fade as we work to help others.
God Bless you and yours.